kai

this one's for you Katherine

Today was my last day of class before final exams, the end of my freshmen year; it's been unbelievable.

here's something you stalker readers can pray for me about:
It's been really hard lately for me to "love" people. Not the kind of love you give to your girl/boy friend, but the kind of love you're expected to show to your neighbors and friends. I've always been a extremely care-free guy, but I was always able to at least show some kind of love and appreciation to others. I guess a lot of old scars that hurt me are beginning to come up. Yeah, I "love" and appreciate my friends, but it's just been really hard for me to show it; I don't even know why I used that quotation for "love"... oops I did it again, Thanks Britney.
I might not show it, but I'm struggling right now with my spiritual faith. I don't really have a consistent accountability with anyone at UTSA right now, and it's just been really hard to realize myself what I'm doing wrong. And since I don't have a accountability buddy right now, it makes me really miss my church friends from back home. We kept each other accountable all throughout senior year and summer, and I truly love every single one of them, even the girls.
Why am I being such a baby right now... probably because I just got owned in Starcraft in about 5 minutes. Thanks guys.

On a side note, final exams are coming up, and I am going to wreck shop, whatever that means. I have never studied SO MUCH in my life. Yeah it takes a tow on my social life, but I'm proud of myself. I have never had such good studying habits before, anything is possible! I hope I didn't just jinx myself.

it is so windy outside, maybe a sign that all my troubles are getting blown away :)

May 2 is coming up... big day!